wow knock me down…..can i get a break?

I am having one of those moments. Yea the one I am trying to help other women not have. I just want to start off by asking you to stop reading for a moment and pray for me. I am having a rough time right now. Pray for healing and protection.

Now I will fill you in. Are you faced with death everyday? I hope not. That is why it is so important for us to find a cure. It is just crazy. A few weeks ago I was testing to see how I metabolize tamoxifen. It is a clinical trial….my first one. I thought for sure that I would be fine. Well I got the call today. You are placed in one of three groups. Excessive, intermediate or poor. Of course I was placed in intermediate which means. That I have not metabolized the medicine the last yr and half to the fullest. So I have been in a funk all day. What does this mean. Starting tomorrow I will be taking double the dose for 4 months and then retested. Side effects?????? Worried….yes! Now I have to go back and read all that because I was so thinking I was good and would not have to do this. Can I get a break…..enough is enough! I cant even finish…….

Lord give me the strength
ps-i need one more person to reveal my tattoo… is a great cause and I need your help more then ever:)